I was born into a vicious circle, in the captivity of corruption.
I don’t have a place where to sleep. I don’t have enough money to eat regularly.
I can’t have a normal job because of the BIG corruption and the lack of higher level education.
So I’ve asked myself: what options do I have? Let’s see:
My first option is that I find a job on the black market for about $100/month – sorry, I don’t take the risks for an old song.
Second option is that I travel somewhere else from this junkyard and start studying one of the two things I like, Computer Science (networking, security issues, Linux, BSD, etc.) or Art. But wait! For doing that I need money. Without money, this option is also eliminated. 😦
Okay. What the hell can I do now? To educate myself, I need money. To raise money, I need education. That is a vicious circle. There is no escape.
Because of my good breeding (I was born to a christian family), I won’t be a murderer, I won’t rob a bank.
Dignity of the human being – I’m carrying that with myself too, so I will not palm myself off as mentally retarded to win a free place at a sanatorium.
However I look at it, there is only one more option left. At a sunny day I will end my life. I can’t stand this catch-22 anymore. Adversity every day.
That’s the reason of this blog’s existence: as a last chance I give the opportunity to the Internet to save my life. Maybe somebody will press that Donate button on the top……..